I’ve waited such a long time to be part of a family, I was in foster care when I was growing up – I’m almost too scared to believe it and carry a worry that it won’t last?
Congratulations – I’m not sure whether you are pregnant or recently delivered but the whole process of having a baby can throw up many feelings. It causes us to re-evaluate our lives and upbringing. Most parents, whatever there backgrounds, want a better life and greater opportunities for there own children. It’s a natural desire.
Your child hood experiences have shaped the person you are now. There is obviously going to be some bearing on how having a child of your own and extending your own family will make you feel. Be honest and open if you can – talk about your feelings and expectations primarily with your partner but also discussion with your Midwife and Health Visitor may be helpful.
It is important to try and maintain a healthy perspective on family life; you and your child deserve to be happy.
http://www.baaf.org.uk/index.shtml may be a site worth exploring. I’m sure you want to be a superb parent but don’t be too hard on yourself or have unrealistic expectations. Perhaps exploring parenting courses such as; http://www.parentlineplus.org.uk/index.php?id=11 or via Children centres would be a positive move. Contact with other mothers can be mutually beneficial for you and your baby. Enjoy your time with your child – it passes so quickly, that to spend your days worrying about possibilities beyond your control would be a waste.